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Good Enough

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Good Enough (For You)

I try so hard, but it's so damn hard
being such a fuck up like me
all I want is to be perfect for you,
but I know I'll never be
I just want you to be happy.
I'm sorry I am how I am
I've never been what you want me to be
and I know I never can
I wish that I was normal
and I know you wish that I was too
I wish I wasn't me
so I could be good enough for you
I want to be normal and pretty,
I want to be smart and funny
not just a stupid psycho bitch
with no life,no friends,and no money
I want to make you happy, not depressed
I want to be more than you've had, not less
I know you would have never guessed
that one fucked up bitch could bring so much stress
I'm sorry if you thought I was different
or if you hoped that I might be someday
but I'm a piece of shit and a waste of skin
and I'll always be that way
I wish that I was normal.
I know you wish that I was too
I wish I wasn't me,
wish I was good enough for you
just get the hell away from me
or you'll never live life happily
everything in my life turns to shit
you don't want to be a part of it
I know that it's been quite a while
since I was able to make you smile
I fuck up everything in my life
I'll never get to be your wife
I'm sorry I waste so much of your time
and I'm sorry I'm so useless
I'm sorry all I do is bitch and whine
and I'm sorry I'm so clueless
I'm sorry I just a stupid whore
and I'm sorry that I could never be more
I just want you to be happy
I'm sorry I am how I am
I've never been what you want me to be
and I know I never can
I'm sorry you thought I was different
or if you hoped that I might be someday
but I'm a piece of shit and a waste of skin
and I'll always be this way
I wish that I was normal,
I know you wish that too
I wish I wasn't me
wish I was good enough for you

-by Ashley Carver
written in 2003
age 18
© 2004 - 2024 ash-interrupted
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DerKleineFreak's avatar
sounds like me and my parents .. they never believed in me .. but you know what? i'm gonna show them what i can do ..