Dear Diary

Years have passed
And nothing's changed
I'm still stoned
I'm still deranged
The dark is too cold
And the light burns my eyes
People don't understand
But they still criticize
I can't seem to shake off
This feeling I've got
My chest feels heavy
My stomach's in knots
And it's a constant battle
With myself everyday
Sometimes I just wish
I could make myself go away
No place has ever
Felt like home
There's never been a time
I haven't felt alone
Even when I'm with friends
I'm still suck in my head
Trapped in a world
That's so fucked up and dead
Loneliness
Builds to rage
Until my mind
Is just a cage
These walls keep closing
Until I can't breath
I need to get out
But I'm too scared to leave
This is all I have
And all I know
I have no other
Place to go
I feel like there's nowhere
I truly belong
I feel like an attempt
That went horribly wrong
The dark is too cold
But the sun burns my eyes
People don't understand
But they still criticize
Years have passed
And nothings changed
I'm still stoned
I'm still deranged